Been sick for the past 1 week having high fever and stuffs.. Wenta see the doc on Tues, Thurs, Sat.. Sat supposed to be my flight to Beijing but i can't go coz i am still having a 39+ degrees and weak to move.. Was even referred to NUH by my hospital and luckily i need not be admitted.. But i still need to go back now and then for an appointment with dunno what specialist.. Ahh.. Haish..

Okay.. And due to this, i didn't go for the competition in Beijing.. I know the the ppl in SWA now, those weiqi peeps, they're surely scolding me here there everywhere.. Yes, it may be my fault for me backing up last minute not going to the competition.. My fault that Daniel has to go alone and he can't join the competition as well.. I can't stop what everyone is thinking now.. But i really am very weak feeling nauseous vomitting at times.. How can i travel out in a cold country like Beijing and for a week..? Will SWA be able to ensure my health..? Okay.. Perhaps selfish of me to say that.. I've said alota mean stuffs the night before the actual flight coz i was kinda mad @ SWA.. Said what no matter what i still havta go to Beijing if not i will be penalized and never join competitions again.. I was like "what the..".. What bout human rights..? And i start talking craps saying that i dun care bout representing sg blah blah.. But i have decided, and i shall say it now, that i am not joining any more competitions.. Serious.. Get mad at me whatever you guys want.. For that incident, i can only apologise..

Yeah it sux.. Forget everything.. Live for the better..